Please kill me now.

OMG. I am so angry. I hate my job.

It’s not even 8 a.m. and I already want to kill myself.

Why is it, the incompetent ones are the ones with the power?

 

O Canada!

There is something incredibly wrong with this country when…

 

We’ve got a President who thinks it’s okay for the UAE to control 5 of our major ports of entry.

 

A Death Row inmate (convicted of torturing, raping and murdering a 17 year-old with 26 bashes to her skull) gets his execution HALTED because they fear that lethal injection would be a cruel and unusual punishment. Yeah, because I’m sure the 17 year-old ASKED to be tortured, raped and murdered.

 

AND…

 

South Dakota is considering banning nearly ALL abortion in the state, except in case in which it can harm the mother’s life. Therefore, in the situation in which the woman was raped, the rapist now has a say in the unborn child’s life. Once again, because I’m sure the woman asked to be raped.

 

What the hell is wrong with today’s society?

 

Anywhere but the US is looking better and better everyday.

"I bend but I do not break."

Being Twenty-Something…

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.

You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that maybe those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.

What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused.

Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better.

Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One-night-stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself...and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

"I bend but I do not break."

times are a-changin'

They really are.

 

C has asked me to move in with him. The day after Valentine’s day. Big step for the both of us – being that both of us swore to never to live with a significant other ever again. He’s really excited, and so am I. talked with my roomies, gave them a month’s notice.

 

Getting our second dog on Saturday, another Corgi. His name is Sammy and he’s adorable. Will post pics.

 

Wanted to quickly post. Will talk more later.

 

Kisses!

 

 

 

 

I'm just sad.

I haven’t really blogged about it, but I haven’t been feeling good for the past couple of weeks. Nausea, vomiting, exhaustion – all signs pointing to pregnancy, right? Well, it turns out I was – but I miscarried, too.

 

I know this means it’s a good sign and that I can get pregnant, but I can’t help being sad about what could’ve been.

 

L

TRAPPED IN HELL.

What’s worse?

 

People thinking that you have all the free time in the world, WHEN YOU DON’T.

 

-OR-

 

People thinking that you don’t know how to do your DAMN job.